I'm reading a lot...like a lot a lot. Currently I am reading about Carl Rogers and Person Centered Therapy and No I will not be lecturing you on theories but Person Centered Therapy believes that the client can set their own goals and it is the counselors job to keep them on task, in the present, working towards those goals.
The text suggest that a therapist can only expect a client to go deep as they are willing to go themselves. The suggestion for this semesters reading is to apply these theories to our own lives not merely as theory but as therapy...so this is what I am attempting to do throughout my time here at DenSem.
I believe the first step in my own therapeutic process is to let go
First Let go of control. I read in my devotion the other day
" you can achieve the victorious life thought living in deep dependence on me. people usually associate victory with success; not failing or stumbling, not making mistakes. but those who are SUCCESSFUL ON THEIR OWN STRENGTH TEND TO GO THEIR OWN WAY FORGETTING ME. it is through problems annd failure, weakness and neediness that you learn to rely on me. TRUE DEPENDENCE IS NOT SIMPLY ASKING ME TO BLESS WHAT YOU HAVE DECIDED TO DO. it is coming to me with an open mind and heart inviting me to to pllant my desires within you. (this is the part that got me big) It may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyong your reach. YOU KNOW THAT IN YOURSELF YOU CANNOT ACHIEVE SUCH A GOAL. thus begins your journey of profound reliance on me. it is a faith-walk, taken one step at a time, leaning on me as much as you need. this is not a path of continual success but of multiple failures. however each failure is followed by a growth spurt, nourished y increased reliance on me. enjoy the blessed of a victorious life thought deepening your dependence on me" Sarah Young "Jesus calling"
I need to depend on my Lord as counselor, father, friend, conqueror, master, support...all that I need is in him..
two Let go of the past
I am paralyzed by my past, hung up on desires for justice. Answers I may never get, apologies I may never receive. I constantly function from the a point of reference where retrospect is 20/20 and I now have the answers to all of my past questions. I dwell on all the things I wish I could have said or done to change the outcome of the circumstance. Whether is was a opportunity missed or relationship lost I torture myself by constantly living in the re-play. Until recently, I realized that was no way to live at all. You can not change the past, but If I can't learn to let it go and change those things about me which I have come to despise, maybe I can experience a fuller future.
If I could tell my past self any one thing it would be to be honest and talk about how you feel, don't be afraid to take risks..live life to the fullest...
so, since I cannot talk to my past self I will tell my future self. Be honest and talk about how you feel, don't be afraid to take risks..live life to the fullest..
Its never too late to let go, so now, no more trusting in me, no more dwelling on the past with full dependence in the divine strength of God alone... I press on towards my goals and trust that I am exactly where God wants me to be. I trust in His calling for my life and though I may never understand the process in which the Lord has taken me to get to this point I'm glad to be here. I'm looking forward to what God is going to reveal about Himself and His character through this period of self evaluation of which I am about to embark. I trust that God knows the Plans that He has for me and that they are plans to help me, not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future.
